TAKE A DEEP BREATH
"The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt." (Sylvia Plath)
Whatever happen to me this past two years??
Looking back, it seems I was a lot different from who I think I am today. Back reading through the posts and looking at the old photographs, I was not like my current self, really. It’s all weird feeling sinking in, I’m not even sure what or who’s better. I lose one whole dose of my quirkiness and I became a serious dork from nowhere, over-analyzing things and thinking way too overboard. I became obsess with things out of my control and my memory’s all fcuked up.
I want to have a grip of my old self again. tsssss -___-
A Lover’s Discourse
One of the most frustrating things in the world for me is a blank word sheet in front of me and I can’t do anything but stare at it blankly, blinking hardly, wishing my brain juices would miraculously work.
But the ideas come and go like a lightning in a night full of stars. I just can’t grasp at it no matter how hard I try, no matter how I want to hold on it and put it inside a bottle and throw it in the ocean of thoughts and vicious cycle.
I’d try to move my fingers in the letters spread across me like a 5 year old student learning to spell her name, one by one-letter per letter. I’m like a kid waiting for Santa to give me the gift of knowledge and senses, a present I want for Christmas even if we don’t have Christmas. Maybe that’s the reason why I haven’t received it yet, for we have no Christmas at all. Right.
Can I ask the Almighty for the gift I’ve yearning for like forever? Will he give it to me even if I doubt that I deserve it?
But I never doubt Him and so I’ll wait. Ü
from an advertisement. :))
"I will forget the happenings of the day that is gone, whether they were good or bad and greet the new sun with confidence that this will be the best day of my life."
(stuck on the 3rd scroll.woots)
It’s pouring hard in this month of May! What?! In the middle of summer, seriously?! But I want to have another this…
I guess it’s Goodbye Summer!!